Again

No picture this time. I find myself with weird deja vu....... Every Saturday night, Sunday, and Monday are pretty tough. Same things, same problems. Low blood pressure, nausea and vomiting, and so tired. It seems that when I'm not sleeping I am focused on feeling poorly. I need to learn to get out of my body and out of my head. But it does surprise me each week that it is the same thing.

This morning I went in for scheduled labs and ended up being seen. In addition to the usual, I am experiencing a lot of pelvis pain, before even having a Granix shot. So I did labs, a bag of iv fluids, iv nausea meds, and got an X-ray. I do feel better in some ways and was able to rest most of the rest of the day. But this pelvis pain is weird. And annoying.

This afternoon I also did a Granix shot. I have another one tomorrow. This definitely does not help the pelvis pain and actually made it worse. Again.

Does this sound familiar? This is the exact pattern that landed me in the hospital for four days last week. I'm not sure what to expect and am nervous. Will I get a different result and outcome?

Psychologically I feel myself slipping a bit. There's been a lot going on outside of cancer. And I feel my world getting smaller and smaller....... It's restrictive, limiting, claustrophobic, sad, and lonely. How's that for a description......I hate it.