Time moves so slowly when one is diminished to solely a patient. I do feel increasing energy and better stamina. Every day further away from chemo brings more restoration to self. It still blows my mind a bit that I went weekly to get poisoned......
This past week I have been sick with the stomach flu. Where in the world I got it, as I always wear a mask in public places (except restaurants), who knows. Thank goodness it was downtime.
I had several doctor appointments since I last posted. And I have several more this week. I'd say I have 3-4 medical appointments per week. It upsets me, worries me, and disgusts me. I literally am wondering where all of this is getting me. Do I really need all these doctors and tests, etc.? Do I really need all these prescriptions? Where has it gotten me? According to Craig, they are all what has kept me alive this long. But boy am I tired of it all.
Game plan for the week: Get clearance from my surgeon to begin radiation the following week. I am ready to go! Let's do this!
My hair is growing fast. I look like a gray haired cupie doll. Or a Troll doll. But my eyelashes and eyebrows are really coming back in now. I've actually gone out in public without some sort of head covering. It's not really the look I was hoping for but it is progress, and a relief, none the less.
One last thought. I want to thank you for standing by me. As the old adage goes, hard times reveal true friends. There are people who I thought for sure would be actively supportive who have sat entirely silent. And on the other end of extremes, strangers have become solid sources of support. Thank you for not forgetting about me as my world has stood mostly still while yours kept trucking along. I'm lonely and bored. Sometimes it literally is your text message that motivates me for the day. Or your call. You get the point. You remind me that although I have felt really let down by some people, I conversely am amazed at the support and love many of you have offered so generously.
You are so strong & you say everything so eloquently. Keep your chin up strong lady!
Sally,
You are amazing ! You influence so many people. Your journey through this health challenge shows us what is worth fighting for. You are so fortunate to have Craig and his expertise and medical background. And what can you say about John Paul and Brennan. They are so fortunate to have you for a mother. Be proud! Keep moving forward on the road to recovery, you lead the way. We will all follow you.
In our prayers always.
John O.
You’re are an inspiration to all of us. Your strength and perseverance motivate us all to love the world and other people more each day. Along the lines you wrote, there is the upmost wisdom in your point of recognizing true friends, but remember that you are our true friend and we’ll be here until this too shall pass.